please read this.
shanai-suwa:
i want to say that, to those who are reading this, especially those who follow me, since i’m going to delete this blog, i’d like you to unfollow me.
this blog has been through some great times but it also has had a lot of unpleasant memories. and i’m having a lot of troubles right now and i’m pretty much stressed out so i really don’t need another one to get my spirit down. so, yeah.
i think i’m going to deactivate this next week, and i’ll be reblogging this post daily so every one of my followers can read it.
i’ll creep you guys again with my new account tho 8D
p.s i’ll tag this, so if you guys don’t want me spamming on your dash then you can blacklist it 8D
please read this.
shanai-suwa:
i want to say that, to those who are reading this, especially those who follow me, since i’m going to delete this blog, i’d like you to unfollow me.
this blog has been through some great times but it also has had a lot of unpleasant memories. and i’m having a lot of troubles right now and i’m pretty much stressed out so i really don’t need another one to get my spirit down. so, yeah.
i think i’m going to deactivate this next week, and i’ll be reblogging this post daily so every one of my followers can read it.
i’ll creep you guys again with my new account tho 8D
p.s i’ll tag this, so if you guys don’t want me spamming on your dash then you can blacklist it 8D
please read this.
shanai-suwa:
i want to say that, to those who are reading this, especially those who follow me, since i’m going to delete this blog, i’d like you to unfollow me.
this blog has been through some great times but it also has had a lot of unpleasant memories. and i’m having a lot of troubles right now and i’m pretty much stressed out so i really don’t need another one to get my spirit down. so, yeah.
i think i’m going to deactivate this next week, and i’ll be reblogging this post daily so every one of my followers can read it.
i’ll creep you guys again with my new account tho 8D
p.s i’ll tag this, so if you guys don’t want me spamming on your dash then you can blacklist it 8D
please read this.
shanai-suwa:
i want to say that, to those who are reading this, especially those who follow me, since i’m going to delete this blog, i’d like you to unfollow me.
this blog has been through some great times but it also has had a lot of unpleasant memories. and i’m having a lot of troubles right now and i’m pretty much stressed out so i really don’t need another one to get my spirit down. so, yeah.
i think i’m going to deactivate this next week, and i’ll be reblogging this post daily so every one of my followers can read it.
i’ll creep you guys again with my new account tho 8D
p.s i’ll tag this, so if you guys don’t want me spamming on your dash then you can blacklist it 8D
please read this.
shanai-suwa:
i want to say that, to those who are reading this, especially those who follow me, since i’m going to delete this blog, i’d like you to unfollow me.
this blog has been through some great times but it also has had a lot of unpleasant memories. and i’m having a lot of troubles right now and i’m pretty much stressed out so i really don’t need another one to get my spirit down. so, yeah.
i think i’m going to deactivate this next week, and i’ll be reblogging this post daily so every one of my followers can read it.
i’ll creep you guys again with my new account tho 8D
p.s i’ll tag this, so if you guys don’t want me spamming on your dash then you can blacklist it 8D
please read this.
i want to say that, to those who are reading this, especially those who follow me, since i’m going to delete this blog, i’d like you to unfollow me.
this blog has been through some great times but it also has had a lot of unpleasant memories. and i’m having a lot of troubles right now and i’m pretty much stressed out so i really don’t need another one to get my spirit down. so, yeah.
i think i’m going to deactivate this next week, and i’ll be reblogging this post daily so every one of my followers can read it.
i’ll creep you guys again with my new account tho 8D
p.s i’ll tag this, so if you guys don’t want me spamming on your dash then you can blacklist it 8D
i’d usually put this under the read more thingy, but i just want to make sure you read this.
you know, this letter sucks. i’m not good at putting my feelings into words, never was, actually. but please, please believe me when i say you do mean a lot to me.
i’ve always hated that word “best friend” with a burning passion, and my reasons for that, may i keep it to myself. but then, i finally had the courage to admit it to myself that maybe, maybe you really are the best friend i never had. but now, it doesn’t mean anything anymore.
you know, life goes on, you have your new friends and all. and honestly, i’m happy that you’re happy, but at the same time, i’m sad that i’m not the one who bring you those joyful moments. all of your friends are amazing and wonderful and talented, really. they are so wonderful that i envy them, a lot. at first it was a small jealousy, but then i noticed the distance between us and then i started crying at night.
don’t get me wrong, i am happy for you. it’s just that, i’m just so mad at myself for being so selfish. i felt as if we were drifting away, and we are. and i just have to accept the fact that there are people in your life that are much, much more important than me.
but you know, what i’m feeling, what i’ve been feeling for a long time now, it’s horrible. sometimes it just feels like someone stabs you right in the heart with a knife. and you know, we’ve gone through this many times before. i posted about how sad i was because i hadn’t talked to you for a long time, you always apologize and i felt normal again. but then that feeling, it kept coming back time after time.
that’s why, please, don’t talk to me anymore. because if you do, that feeling will stop, and come back again unexpectedly, and honestly, after 5 months, i don’t think i can take it anymore.
again, please, believe me, and don’t think that i’m seeking for attention or trying to make people pity me cause i’m not, you mean a lot to me and i’m too clingy. i just can’t erase you from my life so please, delete me.
and that 8-letter thing we use to call ourselves, soulmate, please use it for someone else who deserves it. because obviously i’m not worthy.
i just want you to know, it’s not your fault. i’m not mad at you, i’m just mad at myself. this friendship, our friendship, it meant so much to me yet i put no effort in trying to make it better. i’m sorry that i’ve brought so many troubles to you, i really am.
i don’t really know how to end this thing. i guess, i wish you happy days and a bright future, from the bottom of my heart.
yeah, maybe that’s all.
